Your Ni Dom

A Theory of Self

Fear and Lack

This reflection ends with a realization that fear and sense of lack are guiding some of my survival choices.  Along the way, I talk about conflicting principles and values.  Randomness:  words, freestyling, spirituality, longsuffering, and tertiary FI.

White Space

This reflection unpacks a conversation I had with a stranger (who also happened to be white, male, progressive and an ENFJ).  The main takeaway is in the way whiteness recreates itself and the embedded scripts that playout regardless of the players or the environment.  

A Lesson of Self

This reflection is ultimately about embracing my self worth when loving someone who is controlling and manipulative. [This is a continued conversation about my dad who has Stage 4 cancer.]

Owning Your Truth

This reflection ends with a conversation about knowing and owning your truth especially when contending with competing forces in the outer world. Along the way, I talk about four themes: 1) responding to an invitation from my unhealthy father; 2) sociology content parked and then resurrected ; 3) merging my two podcasts (and my two worlds) ; and 4) controlling the sensory world. I have an Fi (introverted feeling) breakthrough at the end so it does get a little emotional.

An Unhealthy Cycle

Tomorrow, I have been invited to spend time with my father who is battling Stage 4 cancer. Time with him is always about participating in a continuous cycle of control and manipulation. This reflection is about that cycle and about tomorrow's decision.

Scale

This reflection starts and ends with a conversation about vision and scaling my business towards that vision. In the middle is a conversation about social justice and different levels of justice related to power and comfort. As usual, there is an assignment at the end for the listener (pertaining to scaling upward).

Leading in the Curse

The main theme in this reflection is about leading people when people leadership is not your superpower. Along the way, I talk about my own super powers (intellectual and political leadership) and my struggle when it comes to team management. Random rabbit holes: weight loss and meal prepping; neurodivergency and non-conformity; and discomfort when not problem solving is the solution.

My Growth Plan

The running theme in this reflection is about my goal to inspire people to think, grow and have impact in the world. Major sub-themes: integrated pathways of an Enneagram 8; being a social subtype; the fluid nature of the second instinct in the instinctual stack; ownership and the ruling class; relationships and structural loss; and reflecting.

The Privilege of an Emotionless INTJ

This reflection begins with a conversation about an INTJ panel that talked about being emotionally disconnected and ends with a conversation about the collective and historical emotions surrounding the guilty verdict of Derrick Chauvin. In between these two ends is a discussion on the unspoken narratives and expectations that are connected to systems that harm (how most people lean into those expectations as opposed to disrupting them).