Your Ni Dom

An Unhealthy Cycle

Tomorrow, I have been invited to spend time with my father who is battling Stage 4 cancer. Time with him is always about participating in a continuous cycle of control and manipulation. This reflection is about that cycle and about tomorrow's decision.

Scale

This reflection starts and ends with a conversation about vision and scaling my business towards that vision. In the middle is a conversation about social justice and different levels of justice related to power and comfort. As usual, there is an assignment at the end for the listener (pertaining to scaling upward).

Leading in the Curse

The main theme in this reflection is about leading people when people leadership is not your superpower. Along the way, I talk about my own super powers (intellectual and political leadership) and my struggle when it comes to team management. Random rabbit holes: weight loss and meal prepping; neurodivergency and non-conformity; and discomfort when not problem solving is the solution.

My Growth Plan

The running theme in this reflection is about my goal to inspire people to think, grow and have impact in the world. Major sub-themes: integrated pathways of an Enneagram 8; being a social subtype; the fluid nature of the second instinct in the instinctual stack; ownership and the ruling class; relationships and structural loss; and reflecting.

The Privilege of an Emotionless INTJ

This reflection begins with a conversation about an INTJ panel that talked about being emotionally disconnected and ends with a conversation about the collective and historical emotions surrounding the guilty verdict of Derrick Chauvin. In between these two ends is a discussion on the unspoken narratives and expectations that are connected to systems that harm (how most people lean into those expectations as opposed to disrupting them).

Patterns and Cycles

This episode explores four types of reflections (as related to introverted intuition). It also explores happiness as 1) a situation; 2) a state of mind; or 3) a biological condition. Additional subthemes: history; personality typing; school buildings, and Ni and blackness.

The Frequency of Thought

This reflection ends with an odd conversation on high frequency thinking and low frequency thinking. However, most of the episode is about a survey of my morning thoughts: being positive; feeling men and tertiary Fi; updates on social engineering as an INTJ (in the Meyers Briggs system); the politics of podcasting; and resolving my instinctual stack as a Type 8 (in the Enneagram system).

The Problems with Social Justice

This reflection considers neoliberism (as relating to social justice) and then presents critical theory (as a praxis) as an alternative route to having an impact in the world. Additional concepts mentioned: Te (MBTI), 8 (Enneagram), power, conservatism, bootstrapping, being unpolished, and podcasting woes.

Instincts and the Outer World

This reflection is third in a series on survival instincts [recorded April 4, 2021]. It possibly has two distinct parts. Part I is about personality theories and when/why I return to them. Part II is about two of those theories: a) the Enneagram (with consideration toward instincts being a fixed treatment or a preferred treatment); and b) the Graves Model (considering the model as one for collective/social growth). I bring the two parts together by considering the ways the outer world impacts the inner world; and then in return, the ways we (through our inner world) impact the outer. I fall into two short (but noticeable) rabbit holes: 1) about justice and competing oppression; and 2) self-serving benefits of denying the invisible layers of the social world.

Instinct

This reflection is Part II in a series on survival instincts [recorded March 23, 2021]. It has two parts. In the first part I consider myself as a social 8 vs self-preservation 8 (based on the Enneagram). In the second part I contrast MBTI against the Enneagram, defining the former as a system for cognitive orientations and the latter as a system for emotional orientations. I process the history of emotions, thinking and language as relating to the human brain. I bring it all together in an attempt to understand the role emotions play in the activation of our survival instincts. An assignment is given to listeners at the end and will be eventually posted at www.yournidom.wordpress.com.