Your Ni Dom

Sadness

I end this reflection exploring sadness as instructional. Throughout, however, I contend with several triggers and methods for coping. Supporting themes: Childhood trauma; Intergenerational trauma; Self- care versus dual-care; Power and supervision; Kissing frogs; and Giftedness. Typology: INTJ and Fi.

Kissing Frogs

In this reflection I explore the labor of transformational growth. Supporting themes: Feeling women vs thinking women; Dominant groups vs minoritized groups; Life lessons; Power and vulnerability; and Race, gender and cognitive functions (along with the function stack). Typology: Te; Fi; Fe; Type 8; Type 1; and Type 5.

Personalism

In this reflection I explore several features of personalist philosophy.

Footloose

I end this reflection with the lyrics from the song, "Footloose". In getting to this point, I talk about a-b-c in reverse: confessions, bravery and accountability. Supporting themes: Intergenerational trauma; Mothers and daughters; Scapegoats and the golden child; and Healing, surviving and thriving. Typology: INTJ

Collision

In this reflection I contend with a primary event that's preventing me from being what I imagine... or desire. Supporting themes: Variance between Type 8 and Type 1; Introverted 8; Range of healthiness; Family Roles and Expectations; Systems Theory; Cancer; and Intergenerational Trauma. Content that influenced this reflection in part: "What's it like to be an introverted Enneagram eight? (by Ashadeep_TV on YouTube) and "Am I an Enneagram Type 8 or Type 1 (Enneagram MBA on YouTube). Typology: INTJ; Types 8, 1, 7 and 5; and Introversion and Extroversion.

Start, Stop and Beyond

In this reflection I wrestle with more bad news and consider this thing called life and whatever is beyond. [This episode is the start of Season 6.] Supporting themes: Identity; Self-actualization; The intuitive struggle (living in a sensory world); The politics of heaven; Aloneness; Living a purposeful life; and Race and the minoritization of subgroups. Content referenced: @JustCallMeJohn (YouTube) [Note: I recorded and published a YouTube response to an argument he makes about the INTJ mastermind.] Typology: Introverted intuition: Sensing; and INTJ

Totem Living

In this reflection I contend with social-emotional wellness as a collective experience. [This episode marks the close to Season 5.] Supporting themes: #BlackGirlFollowTrain on Tiktok; Public shaming as acts of accountability; Trauma bonding; Leadership vs supervision; Emotional wellness and reciprocity: Emotional wellness as relating to race and race work. Typology: Enneagram 8, 5 and 2; Social 8 with strong self-preservation instincts.

Racial Reconciliation

In this reflection I consider the different ways I have experienced a racialized existence with other racialized humans. Supporting themes: Class; Religion; LGBTQIA rights; Private school education and public school education; Equity work; Language and thinking; Monoculturalism and diversity; and The racial elite. Typology: INTJ

Understanding the Problem

In this reflection I attempt to create a new theory: Blended Living (assuming the problem was with Te-Fi conflict). I ended the reflection with a different consideration: Conjoined Living (accepting the problem as Ni-Te disjointedness). Supporting themes: Te at work; Te and power; Te in intergenerational trauma; and Friendship, family and romance. Typology: Extroverted thinking (Te); Introverted intuition (Ni); INTJ, Enneagram Type 8.

Repositioning the 8

In this reflection I do a little storytelling to wrestle with a contradiction, a discovery and a missing piece (all contending with the Enneagram 8 part of me). Supporting themes: Intergenerational trauma; Healthy and unhealthy being; Loving while healing; Fighting for self vs fighting for justice. Resource mentioned: "I Hate You-- Don't Leave Me" by Jerold Kreisman. Typology: Instinctual stack; Social Self- Preservation 8; Type 5; the INTJ8.